day 23. 5 guys.

Well I kinda gave up on the whole 30 day challenge thing. So uh, yeah. Dang.

But ummm I do like day 25 so I'm doin it. 5 guys who are famous that I find attractive.

 

Bradley Cooper.

I have been obsessed with him for a few years now.

But look at him. Who isn't obsessed.

Plus he's 2011 Sexiest Man Alive.

Yuh-huh-mee. Amen.

James Franco

The first time I laid eyes on this boy was in Spider Man.

He was pretty cute.

But then I saw Pineapple Express.

I was like oh dang.

Then 127 Hours came out.

I thought, oh geez, I want him.

He is so cute.

Ryan Gosling

This man right here is sex.

Every single time I see him on screen, I want him.

I have never wanted a guy more than when I saw Crazy, Stupid, Love.

Oh Gosh.

He is soo sexy.

and if you haven't seen him in Drive, WATCH IT.

Seriously.

Luke Bryan

When you think of rednecks who love fishing, hunting, four wheeling,

their trucks and dirt, you think of this man.

He is a country God.

Sexy voice and sexy looks.

He has got it all.

mmmhmm.

Cam Gigandet

He may be gay (or so rumors claim) but he is still hot.

Oh goodness. Half the reason I watch Easy A is to see this guy.

He has such a sexy body.

I would do him.

Why do I like Burlesque?

Because you see him naked.

well. almost.



Well that is my list. They made it for their looks. Now, I have two others in mind that aren't the best lookin, BUT, for some reason (and I do not know why) I am obsessed with them.

Okay. Here we go.

Robert Pattinson

Yeah really. I am so attracted to him for some reason.

Must be that British accent.

He gives me butterflies.

Blake Shelton

a.k.a Blakey Shelts.

I get so much crap because of him. But I don't care.

I WANT HIM.

It must be his music cause I honestly don't know why.

Yes blakey shelts, you can kiss my country ass anytime you'd like.

really.

day 17. the highs and lows.

Graduated High School

Went to Disneyland with friends. 



Taylor Swift Concert.

Moved on after 3 years of heartache.

Lost some close friends.                               Made some new friends.

                              Started College.

Silently said goodbye to the love i've never had the guts to say i love.

 Had a crazy summer.

                                                       Tried some new things.

                            Not always good.

                Experienced Yogurtland.

Met a boy named Justin. <3

Grew up.

It's crazy to think how different things are from where they were at the beginning of this year. 

I have a completely different life now. 

day 16. mainstrem music.

According to Urban Dic, this is the definition of "Mainstream Music"......

                "Music that's usually on the radio, Top 40 and is well known to the general public. Usually criticized by fans of the previous mainstream generations, and people who prefer bands and/or genres that aren't apart of the mainstream popularity of the time."

Well. By definition. I listen to mainstream music. But my music isn't pop or whatever. My music is country. That is all I listen to 24/7. It's a good thing that my friends like it because they would hate me if they didn't. When we get in the car we turn up some Jason Aldean or blast out to Rodney Atkins. Every single time. Without fail. Always country.

So. Yes. I do like Mainstream Music and I don't think there is anything wrong with that. 

day 15. scratch that. blog.

Well I don't have a Tumblr. I don't know how to even look at tumblrs. Soo.....

Here is my favorite blog. Ever. Every time I look at her blog I laugh so much. She is amazingly awesome.

http://www.verbal-vomit.com/

Please look at it and try to tell me it isn't the best blog you've ever seen. Especially about the hipsters. Oh man. That's some good stuff right there.

Video killed the radio star.

PEACE OUT.

day 14. early memories.

                I have the worst memory. I don't remember crap. I will only remember random little things. So this is kinda a struggle for me.


I'm not sure if this is the earliest memory of mine, but it's one that I remember pretty well.

I was almost 5 years old at the time, sitting in my car seat, on the way to the airport. My dad and I were going to drop my mom off there for her business trip she was going on. We parked in the parking garage and were getting out of the car. Now, at the time, I had a Minnie Mouse stuffed animal thing that I brought everywhere with me. She hardly left my side. I don't know why, but I decided to leave her in the car while we said goodbye to my mom.
So were walking through the airport and we get to the loading dock. At that moment, my parents tell me that my mom isn't really going on a business trip, and that they were surprising me with a trip to Disneyland. I was so excited I couldn't wait. We get on the plane and sit down in our seats. Then suddenly, I realize that I forgot Minnie Mouse in the car. I was so sad that I started crying. I was very worried. I would have to go a whole week without her.

Well that is the end.

day 13. somewhere.

So. I am sick of Provo. School is awesome and the people are pretty nice. BUT. I want to leave. Really really bad.

For a while now, I have had Payson and Heber on my mind. I vist both of those places at least twice a week. When I am married, if I live in either one of those towns I will be pretty happy for life.

-and- on another topic.
first off.



I honestly surprised myself. But I fell for a boy.

His name is Justin.

He is 23.

He is a country boy.

He is from Gunnison, UT.

He builds farms for a living.

He drives a sexy Chevy.

He is a gentleman.

He makes me laugh.

He sings along in the car with me.

He has amazing baby blue eyes.

He is super tan.

His mama and daddy are the sweetest.

He is a goofball.

He wants to be a physical therapist.

He loves to cuddle.

He is very chill about life.

He is, no doubt, the first and last thing on my mind. Everyday.

Once upon a time, my friends and I decided to get some drinks at Maverik. As I am backing out, I hear "hey, what are you doing tonight?" I look over and see a car full of guys. I told the guy we were headed to a party. He then asked for my number, and luckly I was prepared with a name tag that said "hey i'm Ray, i'll be your sunshine." with my number. My two friends and I had been driving around giving guys our numbers that night. So, I gave it to him and that was that.

A few months later, he is now my boyfriend.

The End :)

It's a story i'd love to tell my kids. Not that i'm getting married anytime soon. No way. But, in a few years he could be the one. Time can only tell.

I do miss being single, and sometimes it's tough. But in the end, I wouldn't give this up.

Not even for....

Yeah. That's saying something.

day 12. bullet my whole day.

I'm guessing this means what happens in a regular day of mine? Well that's what i'm doing.

I do the same thing everyday. No joke. Like I do different things, but it's the same pattern.

Wake up 8:15.
Go to school.
Go to work at 1.
Get off work at 5.
Do my homework till about 8 or so.
Pick up my girl Hunter.
Then we meet up with our cute cowboys.
Go home at 1.

That is my day everyday. It doesn't sound that great, but I like it.

I love being a young adult. These are the best days of my life.

day 11. songs on my ipod.

Well....here are the 10 songs that were played on shuffle.


1. Burn. Usher.
2. Cannibal. Ke$ha.
3. Change Your Mind. The Killers.
4. If This Was A Movie. Taylor Swift.
5. Space Bound. Eminem.
6. I Could Not Ask For More. Sara Evans.
7. You're Beautiful. James Blunt.
8. I Get Doe. Glasses Malone.
9. Tattoos On This Town. Jason Aldean.
10. Mammas Don't Let Your Babies Grow Up To Be Cowboys. Willie Nelson.


Well....that's that. Here's a funny picture that I find true for some people. Enjoy.

haha so funny.

day 10. my first love & kiss.

For a while, I thought I was in love. Looking back at it though, I wasn't. It was more of an idea in my mind, telling me I needed him. Saying, don't let go. Even though I was hurt all of the time. I just couldn't. He was playing with my mind and heart. He was the worst thing for me, and i'm so happy I finally learned to leave.

Yes I have loved. But, I don't think I have truly been "in love." What is love anyway? To me, it's a -Once Upon A Time- story, in a children's book.

I think until I fall head over heals, madly and passionately in love with someone, then I just won't be able to believe in love.

my first kiss.....

It was the middle of February and it was snowing. He took me outside to wait for my ride. We stood there holding each other and looking into each others eyes.
We knew it was going to happen, but we were both too afraid to do it. We'd get closer then back off a bit. I'd giggle to try and hide my nerves. He just kept shining that perfect smile. Until finally he leaned in, and I followed. Our lips touched. It was a little kiss, but I loved every minute of it.

day 9. hopes for my future.

1. I want to be happy. Still full of adventure.
















                                              2. I want to be crazy in love, with my best friend.

   3. I don't want a lot, I just want to die knowing I lived a great life.



day 8. when i was most satisfied with life.

Thinking back on my life, I have had some great times. I've generally lived very happy. But the moment that really stands out to me right now, is the day I started college.

Before my first day, I was a nervous wreck. I didn't know how to feel. I was so worried, yet so excited.

So that day, I park my car, start walking to my first class and....BOOM. A sudden rush of happiness swept over my body. It had finally hit what was happening.

             

                  I was starting college.

I wasn't just going to class, I was about to start a whole new life. I could be whoever I wanted to be. All my labels from high school were gone. Nobody could judge me from what gossip they'd heard or who I was friends with because, from that point on, I was just Rebecca Vargas. That day I realized how great my life was.

 





Before, I used to be so concerned with what people thought about me. I had to have the image of being "cool." Over the past few months I have learned to stop caring. I'm so thankful for my best friend Monica. She made me realize that you need to be yourself no matter what. Now that I've learned how to do that, I have made so many new friends and I'm so much happier.



So, going to school with a new perspective on life, and a clean record, I was on cloud 9.

Starting fresh was the best thing to ever happen.

Growing up is so great.

Suck on that high school.

day 7. my zodiac sign.

Cancer

Loyalty

Dependable

Caring

Adaptable

Unpredictable

A man from Texas came to work at my office 2 months ago. He approached me only a week after we had met and asked if I was a Cancer. He said that he studied Humanities and Astrology, so he knew everything about Zodiac signs. He then told me about the personality of a Cancer.

Cancers want security and comfort yet seek new adventure. They are very helpful to others yet sometimes can be cranky. Cancer has a driving, forceful personality that is easily hidden beneath a calm, and cool exterior.

More then any other astrology signs, Cancer needs to be needed.

As he was teaching me about Cancer, I kept thinking about how right he was. My Zodiac sign fits me well.

"The crab is Cancer's ruling animal and it suits them well, they can come out of their shell and fight but they can also hide in their shell and skitter away back into the depths of the ocean."

"It is difficult for cancer to open up and have a close emotionally fulfilled relationship with someone because they are so closed off emotionally and physically to the world. This is driven by their fear of trust, Cancer has a difficult time trusting people."

I do not trust people easily. I'm very skeptic of what people tell me. I just act like I believe things.

"One of the greatest things about Cancer is their ability to make others feel good about themselves and loved. This is because instead of doing this for themselves, they project this onto other people."

 "Other people can lean on and depend on cancer, they will listen to people's problems and help them however they will rarely express their own deep feelings to anyone. People who want to share deep emotional thoughts and opinions with a Cancer might feel that the scales are tipped on one side for cancer will rarely reveal it's true deep feelings."



It amazes me how true that is. Whenever I'd end up alone with a person, I'd hear about their lives and the problems they were facing. They would talk, and I would listen.

The reason I never opened up back, is because when I tried, I didn't feel like they wanted to listen to my problems. So, I just never told anyone how I really felt about life.

Yes, I agree, my sign does fit me.

day 6. 30 things about me

1. I'm probably one of the chillest people you will ever met.
2. My favorite superhero is Batman.
3. I like the sound of people kissing. yeah i know....it's weird.
4. I have 3 teddy bears. Cudi. Manny. & Mimi. I also have 2 pillow pets. Benny (frog) & George (giraffe). Oh and I have a stuffed horse named Atticus.
5. My favorite color is turquoise. Love love love it. I have 3 turquoise rings.
6. I am majoring in elementary education. I want to be a 2nd grade teacher.
7. I hate Joe Jonas.
8. I have a thing for country boys and big trucks.
9. I'm half Spanish and a fourth Italian.
10. I am afraid of commitment.
11. I skated in the 2002 Olympics, during the opening and closing ceremonies.
12. I used to be the worst secret keeper. But now I never share secrets.
13. I've been playing piano for 10 years now.
14. My dream job is to be a manager for a record label.
15. I can't stand when people pop any bones in their bodies. Gross.
16. I'm in love with Blake Shelton. I envy Miranda Lambert.
17. I sometimes get in fights with my mom about who loves Mickey Mouse more.
18. I'd rather get daisies over roses, any day. 
19. I can't live without Mountain Dew.
20. If I could be anybody famous, it would be Marilyn Monroe. Alive.
21. I want a snake tattoo. Snakes are so sweet.
22. I love Indian/Thai food.
23. I'm buying a Harley when I have the money. My bff and I are gonna ride to Vegas when she gets her Shadow and I get my Harley.
24. I want to rent a billboard before I die. I have no idea what i'd put on it.
25. I have no desire to get married. Probably won't till i'm like 27.
26. I could never live without chap stick.
27. One of my biggest fears in life, is to suffer to death. When I die, it better be instantly.
28. I love spicy italians from Subway. So good.
29. I'm attracted to people who live carefree and make the best of life.
30. I'm marrying a cowboy.

day 5. a time i wanted to end my life

I've never wanted to kill myself. That is awful. I could never do that.

                                  

                                                        but...

I have had some very low moments in my life. Times where I have cried to the point of suffocating myself. Unable to breath or move because i'm in so much pain.

I've had two low points in my life. My 7th grade year and the end of my sophomore year into junior year. Holding in your feelings for a long time begins to wear you down. I felt so alone. There was nobody I could talk to, nobody cares about depressed people. So I listened to others problems. Cause that's what I do, i'm a listener. It actually helped a lot.

It was tough, but I managed through. For that, I owe thanks to my mom.

My attitude is completely different now. I'm happy. Very happy actually. I love my life.

Now I express how I feel. I don't keep things inside.

If i'm mad, sad, happy, or whatever it is, you will know.

day 4. my views on religion

When you have nothing left and nobody there, you can always trust in God.

Religion is what builds us. It is what makes us who we are.

When everything in life is going wrong, I know I can always count on church.

At times we may think we are alone, but we never are.

day 3. my views on drugs and alcohol

Eat. Drink. And be merry. For tomorrow we die.

that is the total opposite of what i've been taught.

bad.bad.bad.

"keep your body clean"

But you have to admit...

...it does look pretty fun.

day 2. where i want to be in 10 years.

I can't say I have a plan for the next 10 years.

Planning is a pain and it ties you down.

Life shouldn't be about the destination. It's about living the journey.

All I really want to do is experience the world.

If I can do that, then I'll be happy with life.

So....to give you an answer, I don't know where I'll be in 10 years. But as long as i'm happy, i'm good.

day 1. status: single

Independent.

I am single. And I love it.

I'm young. I'm reckless. I'm careless. I'm free.

Why would I want to be tied down to one man at a time like this? Right now is my chance to explore the world. On my own. In my own terms. Learning to be an independent body. I don't need the affection of one man. There are too many people in this world that I have yet to meet.

I'm content with my life as is.


Boyfriend? No thanks.

ideas & doodles

So I've decided to do a 30 day challenge.....



More to come.

play

Why O why must I go to college? Well because I was taught my whole life that after high school, you go to college.

End Of Story.

But what if I don't want to go? What if I want summer to go on and on. Having no care in the world. Of course, this can't happen. And it won't. Sooo. It only makes sense that I am freaking out about school starting next Monday. ugh. I'm half excited, half avoiding it. I haven't even prepared myself for the start of school. Mostly because I want to avoid it as much as possible. I don't want to deal with it.

If I could live in a world of fiction. (and an endless supply of money) this would be my life. Presented to you in the form of a song.

Never gonna grow up
Never gonna slow down
We were shinin' like lighters in the dark
In the middle of a rock show
We were doin' it right
We were comin' alive
Yeah, caught up in a Southern summer, barefoot, blue jean night

I listen to that song and think wouldn't life be great? Playing. Everyday. With nothing to worry about.

The summer went by Waaaaay too fast. I hate it. But then I think about it, and I did a lot of stuff. So, at least it was a good three months spent.

7 more days. 

But not only do I have to deal with school. I am also being faced with the decision of moving out. Before yesterday, my parents and I decided I would stay at home. But as of now, I am searching for apartments. My parents think that moving out will help me grow. and give me a better college experience, which I can totally agree with.

Out on my own, doing whatever. Scary.

I don't know what to do. I am sick of life right now. well not really. but i'm sick of making tough choices. I am very bad at making up my mind. I can never decide anything for myself. I just want to run away to the land of "absolutely no responsibility. only happiness and carelessness."

If anyone knows of any cheap flights to that place, let me know. Cause i haven't had any luck.

yay for me.

As of today I have finally perfected Moonlight Sonata on the piano! Makes me happy :) Perfecting any piece on the piano will seriously make my whole week better. So it'll be a good week.

media, gossip and a little fun.

For the past two weeks I have been craving craving craving my 7th grade obsessions again.

Laguna Beach 

 and

The Hills 

ahhhhh. I honestly don't care what anyone says about how dumb those show are, because I freakin adore them. I have been so madly involved in LC's life for as long as she's been on TV. From the time she was a junior in high school, crushing on a boy named Stephen, to the time she moved to LA and met Audrina Patridge (who I also adore.) I just want to watch every episode over and over again! I can't stop thinking about it. ha. Even today at church, I was sitting there thinking about how I wish I could go home and watch them. But then I realized I don't own either show and it's Sunday so I can't go buy them. Ugh. Anywhoo, it's really upsetting.

last friday night....

....well actually it was a Monday. But who cares, cause either way, I saw

Katy Perry!!

(wonderful picture of her) ------>

Such a great concert. It was so much fun! I went with Monica and Moyra and we partied it up. We stood up the whole time and danced until we were all sweaty. I have always liked Katy Perry, but after seeing her live, I am freaking in love. She is sooo funny. and she is so pretty. During the whole show she would make jokes and everything she said was hilarious. It was a great show and she sounds just as good live as she does on the radio! I have some pictures to show from the whole night. The security guards caught me sneaking in my camera and took it from me, so there aren't any pics of the actual show. haha.

Driving Up

We stopped at Forever 21 along the way.

My friends are crazy weird.

The stage after the concert. There was foam everywhere!

Trying to find Katy backstage. We didn't have any luck.

The whole place was packed! She sang on that pink cloud in the sky.

Such a fun night!

                                                                                                              

fly me to the moon.

Lately I feel like my life is going nowhere.

I feel like I am slowly going to start sinking into the ground and then get stuck there for good.

But even though I feel like my life is a hopeless wreck, I also feel on top of the world.

I feel unstoppable.

How is this even possible? I am seriously losing it.

The things I am doing in my life right now make me feel like life is so amazing and that every moment of life is to be enjoyed to the fullest. Which I totally agree with. My mind is screaming "Live Your Life." and i am! This summer I have been awakened to life. I have been living. Even if it's something simple like running through the sprinklers. But not every decision I make is as child like as that though. So, there are some benefits and faults to this "live my life" faze I am going through.

I feel as though the rebel side of me has finally decided to show up after 18 years, and after hiding so long, it’s ready to take on my life full force. Who knows how long this whole thing will last. But for now, I am just going to go along with it and enjoy the ride. Hopefully by the time school starts I will start taking my life a

little more seriously.

take care

After many nights of self meditation and pondering, I think I have finally come up with a plan for my life. I believe I know what I want to spend the rest of my life doing.

I haven’t told anyone of this epiphany, and I probably won’t for a while, just because I like the idea of not letting others influence my decision. Now, this plan of mine isn’t exactly my dream in life, but I think it’s a good choice for me. So…wish me well with it!

Now that i've gotten that off my chest....here's a song for all to listen to. It's from a somewhat new band. Its 

definitely my song of the week. Enjoy :)

sunflowers and a daisy.

So here is the dealio. The straight up truth. My friends are freakin awesome. And because my friends are so awesome, I have decided to dedicate a post to them.

Monica Hunter

WTS. That is the motto that we decided to give ourselves. It stands for We’re The Sh*t. Cause we are. Monica is my go to party girl. When I’m with her, I don’t have a care in the world! Nothing stops us from having a good time. What I love about Monica is that she is herself, every moment of every day. She doesn’t care what others think about her. She does what she wants. I have learned a lot from her. She has helped me put my guard down.  I’m so glad that I can always count on Monica to give my life excitement and happiness. And have a friend to listen to country with J

Megan Walker

Megan is my dang sexy amiga. Pretty sure every guy I know has a crush on her. No kidds. Megs and I are quite similar in many aspects. We’re shy, we’re hyper, we’re crazy, we’re funny (well at least we think we are) we’re annoying (because we think we’re funny.) and many other things. My favorite thing in the world is when megan is hyper, because she is super crazy and funny when she gets hyper. Megs and I have had our fair share in creepin on boys. We enjoy driving around and just listening to music while stalking people we know. It’s great. And we’ll continue it while attending UVU together, I’m pretty sure of it. I’m glad I have megan as my friend J

Tarryn Jakins

When I think of T-Slide, I think of craziness and laughter. Oh Tarryns laugh. I can replay it perfectly in my mind whenever needed. Haha. That is one thing I enjoy about her though. She laughs at the little things in life. Tarryn is optimistic. She has fun in nothing. For example, going to borders and reading magazines for hours. Which we have done a handful of times. My favorite thing to do with Tarryn is to drive around in the car, blast our awesome party music and dance hardcore to it. We do it pretty well. Before I knew Tarryn, I wasn’t exactly her biggest fan. But I am so glad I became her friend because Tarryn is seriously the best! Her stress free personality is so nice to be around. T-Slide is legit. Too legit to quit.

Moyra Pickup

Care Bear!! Ah Moyra is adorable. Everyone who meets Moyra is so drawn to her. And it’s because she is a party. Moyra is up for anything. She just wants to experience everything in life. Nothing seems to be holding her back at all. Moyra is like a little puppy that wants to explore everything they see and then goes and pees on it. When I am with Moyra I feel completely myself. And I know I can be myself around Moyra because she doesn’t judge like most. She just thinks you’re crazy/funny and goes along with it. I love that she doesn’t care at all. Moyra is my favorite person to shop with and that is because I can always tell when she is lying to me. So, when I ask if she likes something on me or not, then I can truly tell if it looks good or not. Haha. Moyras willingness to try everything cracks me up, and I love it. She is too great.

Kendal Parkinson

If I could describe Kendal in two words, it would be amazing friend. Seriously though, Kendal is such a good friend. She has a motherly kind of personality and so she takes care of everyone (like when she tucks everyone in to bed and gives us all goodnight kissesJ) Kendal is also a good listener. If I ever want to have a serious conversation and get something off my mind, I know I can talk to Kendal and she will keep my secret safe. Aside from all the seriousness, Kendal is a lot of fun! We can do whatever and laugh about whatever and have a good time. Kendal can be quite the party sometimes. I love that about her. She can be serious or she can be wild. Ken Dawg is da best. And she likes to blow bubbles.

I love all of my friends.